No need for u to understand

I don't have to choose.. There wasn't any choice in front of me.. It's there all along.. I juz didn't see it..
For sure.. but I'm not sure.. Damn
I'm sorry...

I want to appreciate every little thing u have done.. every word u have said
even though maybe it wasn't sincere at all or it bugs u so much
I do.. want to thank u for that...
one says to me 'u have to stop' and I answered 'I know'
but in my heart I'm not ready at all.. (stupid me)
as if I was so scared that it slipping away from me
it's like I'm betraying.. I feel like I'm a traitor..
And somehow u would say 'u don't wait for me'
like in a dream that i dreamt

And I know sorry couldn't change anything, its just the way u feel