Finally I'm already in silver city
Friday 010110
My way back to Sri Iskandar from JB was a hard one. Usually it is not that hard when you travel in a big and comfortable car. I wasn't comfortable at all. Not that it feel like it was too many stuff which it does but there was too many feelings I felt that bugged me. I'm exited to see my friends but I'm not exited in what to find first day in class. I don't want to leave my mama at home although I wasn't a good company for her. I don't want to see him but I have to. He is In my class; pathetic. There was too many mat rempit doing their stunts and showing off hideously on their bikes (disgust me).
Saturday 020110
Registration day and kemas-kemas bilik Very tiring one..
Sunday 030110
A day with my other 7 best friends to Chemor Visit the orphans..
Thankful and most gratitude to Allah for this life.
Monday 040110
General briefing about being in final semester. Not able to understand why am I stuck with her. Been asking Allah; do I have to be in the same group with her? Does she want me there?
Can she accept me after what I've said about her? Will somehow she'll forgive me like I did?
What does she think after she heard my name after her's? What does she tell other people especially her best friend and her boyfriend about all of this? Will I am able to do my work properly? How does she'll react to every move and suggestion I'll make? What should I say to her?
There just too many question. Too many but to whom I'll get the answer.
Tuesday 050110
Sayang? he came as a best friend and I am no doubt he is not with him.
I knew that I couldn't handle the situation and somehow I'm so grateful that I've got a great excuse. This was just too much for me.
Still positive to forget about him but it just seems to hard after all of this.
I know I need him but how? How should I tell him? How. He would just think I'm crazy, insane, out of my mind.
P/s: He look more different now. But in a good way and that really make it harder for me.
